Category Archives: Outdoors

The path of wisdom

I recently finished Cheryl Strayed’s travel memoir, “Wild“, and I thoroughly recommend it.  Just a very brief synopsis, it recounts her 3 month-long journey along the Pacific Crest Trail after the death of her mother.

I also saw the movie and both the book and movie made me realize that I kind of miss camping and hiking; two activities that I used to do quite a lot in my younger days.

These activities combine a couple of aspects of life that I enjoy.  First is a feeling of freedom that is hard to match in any other setting or situation.  Out in the wilderness you are no longer bound by the labels and situations that might define you in the “real” world.  A person can leave behind the labels of office worker or family member or that person at the book club and become just an individual human being.  You define yourself as who you want to be and as you are able to.  Which leads me to the second aspect that I like.

In the wild you survive as you are able to.  Without any supporting structures or artificial constructs.  Whatever you need to live you either bring with you, make, or do without.  Kind of harsh?  Of course! But that’s why it’s called roughing it.  Not only do you pit your physical strength, but your ingenuity, and your mental toughness against the environment to come out on top.  It’s like an all body and all aspect workout.  If you do it right you end up moderately comfortable, if not you end up uncomfortable and maybe miserable but you learn something about yourself along the way.

Which goes into another aspect about camping and hiking which is that it really does stress you and bring out hidden strengths and weaknesses out to the surface and you are forced to exploit those newly revealed strengths or have to deal with these hitherto unknown weaknesses.  These newly found skills and strengths can be put to use immediately or saved up to take advantage of at a future date and the newly discovered weakness can be purged before they become  a problem in your normal life.

Sitting in front of a fire late at night is a meditative experience. None of the distractions of life, the noise, the superfluous and banal thoughts of daily life are filtered out by the physical experience and get left behind.  The more important, primal, and central thoughts of your existence take center stage.

Solitude has the effect of acting as a catalyst for original thinking.  You are left with only your own mind and your own self to keep you company and you are forced to come up with new ideas and new thoughts to keep you occupied.  You begin to realize what the important parts of your life really are.

The concept of physical privation and struggle to attain a higher state of either greater mental or spiritual strength is not new nor unique to any particular culture or time and place.  Many cultures in the past have had something similar either for young individuals to experience as an inauguration into adulthood or for the philosopher or shaman to act as a revelatory episode and step into the next world.

In the post modern and more urban world that we inhabit however this becomes harder if not impossible for an individual to experience anymore.  Not only are the locations for such experiences becoming harder to access but the tradition and structures that encouraged and guided such meditations are really becoming rarer and harder to find.  Being alone and contemplative is passively if not actively discouraged in our society.

We just don’t seem to have time for this anymore. Which is a shame really. For such experiences are necessary at least for some individuals to realize new truths and to think new thoughts.

Is it for everyone? No. Some people are just not cut out for this type of journey. Maybe they’re not up to it physically or maybe they would find it mentally daunting. But I think for some people it is something necessary to experience from time to time to give their lives some clarity and focus.  A literal and figurative path for their lives to follow.

rain

The storm comes on.  Steadily approaching the house.  I wait with anticipation.   You can tell when it’s going to be a good one.  Taste it in the air.  Rain, a good hard rain, has an earthy sharp smell.  I don’t need anything more than a whiff of that scent to know that it’s coming.

A steady patter at first.  The best storms build up slowly but surely over time.  I remember one Summer on the Outer banks of North Carolina.  A hurricane was coming in.  A near miss on the clean side of the storm.  Just a little category 1 so I knew I didn’t have much to worry.  I sat in a reclining couch with a glass of ice tea in the glass covered front porch of my grandparents house and just watched the storm roll in from the Atlantic over the next 3 hours.  Watched the waves rise out by the dock and the rain come down in sheets.  Somehow it was soothing watching it all.

The storm intensifies.  Distant thunder.  The old kids trick of counting between the lightning flash and the thunder. 1 Mississippi, 2 Mississippi, 3 miss….  The next time I barely finish 2 Mississippi before the rumble.  Getting closer.  I see in my mind’s eye a Spring afternoon in New Mexico on top of a mountain with the rest of my scouting friends.  In the distance we could see the lightning strikes of a storm hit the ground.  We could track the storm’s progress as the lightning strikes got closer and closer.  We knew we had to hurry down off this bald mountain and find cover before it arrived.

The storm has arrived.  Lightning in its full glory with thunder accompanying it immediately.  The lights flicker on and off nervously.  Finally as a particularly close bolt lands they go totally off.  Lightning itself is purple when it’s up close.  Driving the back roads between College Station and Houston one Saturday morning.  Miles from anywhere.  No choice but to keep driving.  Literally no one around to ask for help or shelter.  Ahead of me a tree next to the road gets hit.  Less than twenty feet away.  My eyes are saturated by the brightness of the lightning bolt.  A purple after glow dances across my field of vision and I have to struggle to stay on the road.  Wonderstruck by how vivid it was. I don’t even remember the boom of the thunder.

The storm abates.  Somewhat sad to see something so mighty patter out into a measly drizzle.  So tame now compared to what it was moments ago.  Walking cross the polo fields of A&M trying to get home.  No car, no ride, no other way to get home but walk in the storm.  The driving rain lashing at my face stings.  It’s pitch black out.  The only light coming from the lightning.  In the distance the lightning makes all sorts of crazy patterns as it dances in the skies.  Thunder making everything shake.  Every inch of me soaked in rain.  Nothing for it but to put my head down and walk on.  As I get to my apartment complex the rain suddenly stops, the skies open up and a small shaft of sun comes through the clouds.  I have to stop and laugh.  All that drama for nothing.  If I’d waited half an hour I could have been dry right now.

 

Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.”                                      – Macbeth

 

Stretching your limits

Mohonk Mountain House

Mohonk Mountain House

I began my Tuesday morning at Mohonk mountain house early in the morning.  I had arrived late Monday afternoon and there seemed to be too many things to see and do so I wanted to lose no time.

I wanted to run a lap around the lake but I found that it was less than a mile around and I would need to run five laps to get a decent work out.  I dislike doing laps round the same path.  I prefer long runs with one unique path so instead I opted to make a morning of it and hike all around the property.

I emptied out my leather satchel and put in some things that I thought would be essential.  A couple bottles of water, my Swiss army knife, some twine (can never have enough twine), my cell phone, my room key, a sweater, and my tablet.

As to my tablet, I had recently begun using it for sketching and I had the ridiculous idea of hanging my feet over a tall granite cliff overlooking a majestic scene and doing some sketches of the horizon.  More on that later.

So I started off pretty much just ambling along and exploring whatever struck my fancy.  I saw some “closed” trails signs here and there but considered these to be more suggestions than anything else and proceeded anyways.

Closed trail

Closed trail

After getting lost a few times and “discovering” the employee parking lot.  I just headed off into the woods.  I got far enough into the woods that I could not hear or see anything man-made.  I sat down on a rotten tree stump and just existed.

It was everything I expected and more.

After a few minutes of silence the chipmunks all around me either decided that I had left or that I was no danger to them.  They came out and went about their business.  It was a Tuesday, around mid morning.  Back home I would be swamped with emails and phone calls.  Everyone I knew would be doing the same thing.  Here I was alone, the world didn’t exist.  After a while even the chipmunks went silent.  Leaves drifted down seemingly in slow motion and I could feel the rotation of the Earth under my feet.  It was wonderful.

Feeling a little bit more sane after that I got back on the trail and began climbing.  I found my lofty pinnacle to sketch from.

Eagle's nest

Eagle’s nest

Of course the hotel staff had over a hundred years to explore and “improve” every scenic vista.  So they had installed this little tree house on the cliff edge.  Tour groups were hiking by on a regular basis and were taking and posing for pictures so I would never be able to get anything done.  So that part of my plan went out the window.  I took a few pictures of the horizon and walked on.

Up a ways I found a curious signpost with an arrow pointing down and the caption that read “eagle’s ascent”.  I had read about this in the hotel literature as a sort of rock climb activity.  I hadn’t planned on this at all.  I just wanted a long nature walk that morning but this beckoned to me.  By pure luck I had on some shoes that although they weren’t meant for mountain climbing were well suited for it so I decided “why not?”

As I wasn’t really prepared for this, at first it was a bit of a challenge particularly as I had decided to be an amateur videographer and used my cell phone camera to document it all.  The hotel staff had spray painted arrows as to where to go so it was all fairly straightforward.

I got through that trail fairly quickly and easily but I felt I wanted a better challenge so I climbed back up the mountain and climbed even higher looking for one of the better challenges called the “giant’s path”.  It was as if some giant child had strewn boulder sized legoes all over the side of a mountain.  Just looking at it made gave me pause to think.

I pushed on regardless.  I found that I had to use my fingers, the tips of my shoes, my butt, just anything I could to keep myself from tumbling over the edge.  My entire body got involved into the climbing activity.

I descended down under giant boulders into dark tunnels with barely any hint that there could be an exit on the other end.  Crawling on my belly sometimes and trying not to think of what that slimy thing that my hand had just brushed across really was.

I took a few wrong turns and once jumped a small chasm almost sliding down the slippery rock face.  My shoes barely gripped the rock and held me in place just before I would tumble into perpetual inky darkness.

I began to think to myself when was the last time that I had purposefully exposed myself to this much danger and had to rely only on my body to get myself out of harm’s way?  Years if not decades.  Was this the literal “life flashing before your eyes”?

I pushed the thought out of my mind and pressed on.  Determined to finish this and get out alive.  I squeezed and pulled and finally found the end of the rock climb and could not believe that I had just done that on my own.

I lay down on some nice flat gravel and found myself positively beaming with joy.  I had done that.  Middle aged, out of shape (sort of), me.

If I had done that, what could I not do?